Past. Present. Future.

hmm.. Today, I wanted to go to starbucks, sit down, sip some Hot Peppermint Mocha & read my book but that failed since someone came over to fix my toilet & I couldn't leave my place. I just bummed around & watched television. At 5 o'clock, I had my driving lesson. When i got back home, my mama homemade deep fried banana was sitting on the counter, waiting for me to eat it all.

As we all know, I haven't really blogged BLOGGED in awhile.. I guess I don't really have anything going on in my life to really blog about. I don't have school to stress about.. yet, I don't have a job & I don't have a love life going on but I do have some stuff that's been on my mind & bugging me for a while. Sometime i think "wow how can someone say that" or " how can someone be so ... selfish?" But there are reasons to why people act a certain way & think a certain way. There are reasons to why some people are in my life right now & people that aren't. What I am really trying to say is.. People come and go for a reason. yeah yeah.. cliche, heard that before.. but it's true. I guess for some people relationship is more important than friendship. we always say "don't let boys ruin our friendship," but most of the time it does. Then we apologize and then history repeats itself. We can forgive them but not all the time. At one point, we just have to let it go. Let that friendship go. I'm happy that they're happy but I'm just sick of always forgiving just to know they will do it again. Either backstabbing, betraying, lying or/and ditching. Those people that aren't in my life anymore, I know that either i'm not important enough for them or they aren't important enough for me to care. No regrets. I do think about our good times together but that's the past & right now, life isn't so bad. Actually, it's not bad at all but I can't forget the past. you know that saying "forget about the past," but it's easier said than done. It's all talk. it's hard to forget but be glad we did have some good times together. Live in the present & focus on the future. and yes, i am well aware of my many grammar mistakes & if this was my essay for college. I'll fail it.