09/19/10

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pew pew pew!

The last few days were amazing. Monday, Spent with Jp, Nathan, Dana, Grace & Christian. Tuesday, I spent all day with Mila. We went biking, walked around, went to the beach, ate & watched the sunset. Later that night, I wanted to show Mila around granville street. Wednesday, I spent ALL day (literally) with Dana! We went down to Seattle & we shopped till we dropped.. well dana did. lol I got a few things that i'm really satisfied with! I don't really feel like getting into details so until next time folks! Bye Seattle, see you in a month!

cheers.

I wish your scent on my pillow will never fade away.

Anyways, today was a pretty long day! Dana & I woke up late for breakfast with Gabe & Arvin. So Arvin picked us up & went for breakfast somewhere in Burnaby. He paid for our food which was very unexpected! We decided to go walk around stanley park for bit. Afternoon, Dana & I went shopping at metro for a few hours. I went home around 6. My mom came home & wanted to show my aunt this ice cream place with 218 flavors & then we drove around gastown & yaletown. I came home with a family feud game invitation & a msg asking "do you miss me yet?" .. an hour later, He went online, we had a good conversation then he had to go for breakfast. Well, i'm exhausted! I haven't been sleeping more than 8 hours lately! Time to sleep! good night all!

CONFUSED.

"Don't wanna play the fool.
Won't you tell me what you want and what you need.
Don't waste time.
We've got to deal with this but I'm sick of this poker face.
times are going are going and gone.
It's gone like the wind that can't stop, but stop."

I'm done with guessing and wondering. I'm confused about everything and i don't know what to do...

Sophie.

Stupid Can I.

I can't sleep & why.. BECAUSE;
I regret slacking off in school & skipping too much.
I regret taking advantage of my mom's nice-ness.
I regret not trying in school.
I regret being so fucking stupid.
I wish i can turn back time & redo high school again. I wish i knew in the past that i should have not slack off & try hard enough to get a decent grade. I am so worried that i won't get accepted in college or anywhere else.
what the eff was i thinking back then? oh that it was okay to skip & have fun with my friends. Oh that it was okay to skip and get away with it. Oh that it was okay to skip cause i didn't do my homework. Oh it was OKAY to not listen to my teacher & just talk to my friends. Oh that it was okay to slack off & not do my homework or even study. Oh THAT it was OKAY TO FAIL because its not important. Oh that it was okay to do whatever I want? wtf was i thinking? honestly. i'm so fucking stupid. I've fucking screwed everything up. i fucking regret everything & everything i've done. I just wished i knew not to do that & know what i have to go through now. It have never hit me untill i was out of high school... that i need to get my act together & try. TRY... AT LEAST TRY SOPHIE... why don't i ever listen to my mom or copy my friends; go to class & listen. just listen... try. try to do homeworks & study. that's all.. AND i couldn't do that.. good job. really... good job.

The Struggles In Life

The struggles in my life involves in finding my identity or an identity, carving a future, meeting a great guy, trusting friends & finding a job. After high school, everything change. Fast. The change from a child to an independent adult. I dont know what i like or what i want to do in the future. Someday soon i will, and be successful and i will enjoy life to the fullest, taking risks & embracing a life of uncertainty.