GO SUCK A BIG ONE.

FUCKING ASSHOLE CAN SUCK MY DICK. you pussy shit doesn't have the balls to come up to me & say what you have to say but instead you go behind your little phone & send stupid texts. Don't have the balls to pick up my calls either. are you serious? trying to sound so fucking tough. id like to see you do that to my face, bitch. nosy-fuck. I didn't do anything wrong & i'm not fucking apologizing jackshit. you & your dwarfs can all suck it. grow the fuck up & get a life. We're not in highschool anymore little one. oh and grow a penis. I've never met someone that start so much drama & such a pussy. messing with the wrong girl, fuckface.

THAT'S HOW A PENIS LOOKS LIKE.

CAN'T GIVE UP. CAN'T GIVE UP..
BE MORE OPTIMISTIC.
BE CONFIDENT.
TELL YOURSELF YOU CAN DO IT. YEAH YEAH YEAH

Fear of Failure.

The fear keeps building as the failures & embarrassment add up over high school. I'm so scared to fail but I keep thinking that I will fail because all my high school years, I've been failing. Whenever I get a passed, a good 50%.. I'm satisfied or even if I failed, I don't give a crap but I can't keep doing this. I really want to get something I actually earned.. that I worked for. I'm scared that even how much I studied . how much I tried. I'll still fail. I feel like how much I read, took notes & do the practice tests.. It doesn't seem to absorb in my freaking head.

Oh the agony.

.. sorry if I've been a bitch lately. I just need time alone.. yet I want to talk to someone but I don't want pity from you. I hate when people pity me. I dont want it. I don't need it. Just need someone to listen to me. That's all. I feel like studying is the only thing that keeps my mind busy.

badmood.

i'm a fucking failure -.- fml!

RESOLUTIONS!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY & oh how i missed it!
Feels good to be back to school again! :)

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:
1. Less cursing.
2. Get my N.
3. Do well in school.
4. try not to get into academic probation.
5. Less skipping & stop being late.
6. Work as hard as i could in school.
7. Less computer.
8. Goal weight: 115lb.
9. No more soda.
10. Get a tutor. even though I hate people tutoring me.
11. Enjoy life more.
12. GET ORGANIZED!

tada!

xoxo.

Went to Seattle on new year & went shopping with Ashley ♥ .. I got some good ass deals! Boots on sale for 50 bucks! make up brushes orginally 120$ & got them for 30$!! bunch of other stuff.. We went for dinner with our family afterward. I stayed in Seattle for 2 nights & 3 days! Didn't get to see Ashley as much as we plan to but that's okay.. we will visit soon enough! xo

2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Had dinner w/ the besties & then party @ crystal's! good night guys ♥