09/19/10

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I wish your scent on my pillow will never fade away.

Anyways, today was a pretty long day! Dana & I woke up late for breakfast with Gabe & Arvin. So Arvin picked us up & went for breakfast somewhere in Burnaby. He paid for our food which was very unexpected! We decided to go walk around stanley park for bit. Afternoon, Dana & I went shopping at metro for a few hours. I went home around 6. My mom came home & wanted to show my aunt this ice cream place with 218 flavors & then we drove around gastown & yaletown. I came home with a family feud game invitation & a msg asking "do you miss me yet?" .. an hour later, He went online, we had a good conversation then he had to go for breakfast. Well, i'm exhausted! I haven't been sleeping more than 8 hours lately! Time to sleep! good night all!

oh, baby cupid. answer my questions for me.

I am becoming those crazy girls where I am constantly thinking what can he possibly be doing rigtht now? what IS he doing right now? I wonder if he treats other girls like he treats me? Why hasn't he texted me for so long.. Wonder if he's bored of me, already. I don't want to be those clingy girls where I keep texting & checking up on him. Never was & never will. We're not even going out for god sake. I think the reason why I am so paranoid is partly because I have been in some pretty awful relationships. Where trust wasn't giving to me, I had to earn it. Where I can't trust anyone, anymore. Where I've been lied to, but I am so over it. There's a reason why I am not with him. Past is the past. I just want this paranoid bug off me. Like I said, we're not even going out.. then why am I like this? because i've started having feelings for him? It's kinda scary but exciting in a way. I am well aware that it's going to wear off soon. I have school to worry about! I don't have time to DATE. Am I just making up excuses because I am scared to get so close to someone again. excuses excuses excuses. I don't know wtf I want. I can't make up my mind. WHAT.. ON .. EARTH.. DO .. I WANT!

What have you done to me (8)

Okay, happy thoughts. I feel like I've been so pessimistic lately. I blame it on schoo-schoo-schooool! I remember saying oh how I am so excited for college! I miss going to school. Yeah, you're right. I want to take it back. hahaha I've been studying like crazy. I forgot how a nap feels like since I don't have time for naps! Anyway, for real.. life is goooooooood! really good. Had some random clubbing nights w/ my girl, Dana. Last weekend, we went to gossip for Daniel's 19th birthday. It was awesome. I can't wait until next week for Pasu's 19th birthday!

myboyproblem:

It's been awhile since someone treated me so nice & would do anything just to see me. I'm just scared that since he's so nice to me, I'll push him away. I don't want to like him because he's so nice to me but I want to like him for who he is. Right now, I'm just confused. I can't tell if i like him but he makes me giggle whenever he text me. We will just have to see.

What He Did Saturday:

He texted me asking if I wanted to go to a party but I said I'm already clubbing.. He said that he'll come if I want him to, all I said was it was really up to him. Next thing you know, he's right at the door. The bouncer wouldn't let him in because of dresscode. He went to the casino next to the club & bought a random guy's shirt for 20-30 bucks? .. He also had to pay to get in.. We didn't know but the club closes at 2 & he came at 1:30.. so he stayed for half an hour. I felt so bad.. not only that but he had to carry me out because I was too drunk. He also paid for our cab back to his place.. how crazy is that? He came just to go through all that .. If i were him & the bouncer wouldn't let me in.. I would just peace it.

Brown Overload.

My brown boy obsession has officially expired. After an overload of brownies, I have decided that they are just not for me. Also, save mama a heart attack if i ever bring curry boy home.

Confession:

I miss AJ but i think he will always be that guy I have a crush on but will never go out with. He called me today & he sounded so damn sexy :( haha. I guess it's time for me to go back for asian & white boys. I'm not racist but I can't picture myself with a black or a native guy. AND Warning! If you ever want to go for brown guys, all i gotta say is that they are pretty clingy. I find myself looking @ my cell & finding freaking 5 missed calls & 2 texts asking me "Whatsup?" well if I am not answering your phone calls.. Obviously I won't be texting you (no it's not AJ.. lol) but if that's what you like then go for it! Anyways, TMR is the big day! I'm so excited! I'll post up a picture tomorrow! :D